Healing the Masculine/Feminine Divide

I am walking on currents of light.
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How could I want for anything
when the universe lifts my every footstep
fills my every inhale
carries my thoughts into an infinity
of wordless wonder?
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They told me this was “naive.”
They told me “dreamers don't survive this world.”
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But I say:
It was when I stopped dreaming
I became heavy as a boulder.
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When I believed them
my thoughts crippled my very limbs.
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It was when my heart was revived
like a fish rocked in water
after flailing on the shore
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That I knew without an ounce of doubt:
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Dreaming is my home
like water for gills.
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It is the Great Force of the Mystery
to whom every cell of me belongs
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And my job is to love
without condition
the Pattern
that pierces
every
other
pattern
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The one breathing this breath
the one writing this poem
and the one reading it.
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This very suspended moment
as awake
as the moon in the night
and as real
as the heart pumping
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however fast
however worried
however unfinished
with its karmic lessons
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Do you feel it?
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Thump-thump.
Thump-thump.
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​Light.

With the help of a shaman I trust, I was recently able to transmute a pattern that kept me separate from the flow of prana through my body, and I wrote the poem above the following day, as I adjusted to the deeper somatic freedom and observed a lightness reaching all the way down to my toes.

There are moments we work towards diligently for years that finally reach a crescendo (buffered by all of the resourcing, the stabilizing self compassion), and that smoothly, gently, fully LET GO.

Life feels new on the other side. Rigidity gives way to softness, curiosity. And doubt gives way to a certainty that is wrapped in Mystery.

On the other side of this threshold I find myself finally opening up publicly around a topic that was far too vulnerable for me to share before, which has to do with gender trauma and the rift between the masculine and feminine.

Speaking with my friend Shawndi~ who shares a similar passion for healing this rift~ was a supportive place to begin speaking into these wounds and their transmutation.

I hope you'll enjoy it, below, and reach out to me if you feel ready for support in healing the gender wounds in your own psyche and life.

Video gift: Healing the Masculine/Feminine Divide
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In this conversation, I interviewed my friend Shawndi Stahl on the topic of healing the masculine & feminine divide, within ourselves, and within culture. Shawndi is a beautiful example of someone who is saying YES to the calling of her soul, and witnessing how the deeply personal is intricately woven with dharma and legacy. In this conversation, we speak into how weaving these energies within ourselves is deeply empowering and can lead to radical life changes that mutually benefit those around us, simultaneously transforming the wounds of the past.