Neither are true.

THEY ARE REAL AND YOU HAVE THE POWER TO HEAL THEM.

I've been enjoying watching material from other practitioners and experts in the neuroplasticity space this past week, and it has been so fulfilling, validating the path I have been walking these past few years and how my practice has evolved.

This is beyond the debate about physical medicine versus "energy" medicine. It's about the way in which we master our attention through the process of releasing karma, and recognizing the mind and body as one thing, one fluid mirror of who we've been and who we are becoming.

I've seen clients release years of chronic health conditions, relationship challenges, parenting overwhelm, career stuckness… by safely and precisely supporting them to thaw from a functionally frozen nervous system.

In the Sanctuary, my weekly, long-term container can be fully surrendered into like a cocoon to hold you through the process of becoming free of chronic holding patterns, not by focusing on the problems, but by giving the nervous system a more coherent experience in which they can safely unwind.

I also offer 1-1 sessions within the Sanctuary, which are my original medicine, and akin to masterful surgery at the somatic level.

I’m currently offering 1-1 sessions to folks who've never worked with me before, to feel first-hand the radical shift that happens when the nervous system re-calibrates to exit old patterns and program new pathways.

Are you in the midst of a recalibration in life~ around your health, around your relationships, around your work, around your finances, around place or sense of purpose?

My clients regularly report that after a session with me they are suddenly able to make new choices in that were previously unavailable to them, because they are literally wired differently.

Video: Mind-Body Inspiration from Dr. Alan Gordon & Melanie Murphy

When Jennifer Rose asked me to be a live guest on her show, I knew it was a "yes" even before I met her, because of the infinity symbol.
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If you've worked with me in somatic re-patterning, you've experienced it: the felt sense that healing has a rhythm to it.

Symbols throughout time, including the two winding serpents, and our braided DNA, speak to the oscillatory nature of existence. Life is not a flat state, but a relationship between opposites and equals.

When you set aside the particularities, the entire history of myth (from various cultures) and mystery (from various faith traditions) sits within this symbol.

The circling pulse between the left and right hemisphere of the brain. The two wings of a butterfly. Our two eyes, hands, ovaries, and feet. The yin & the yang. The magical polarity.

To add another layer, there is the depth dimension of the spiral field, the fact that not only do planets orbit our sun, but our sun orbits the center of our galaxy along with many other suns, and our galaxy orbits something even greater... etc. (The edge of an entire world circles a greater one, and the two serpents wind up the spine to become something unified as they exit the crown).

And now, in this evolutionary moment on planet Gaia, our 3D polarity is reaching an integrative moment.

I believe that what many are calling "5D" consciousness is the reality we have the opportunity to step into when we allow the very polarities of our 3D existence to unify at a higher order (integrate while retaining their sovereignty, allowing both to simultaneously expand their previous limitations). Cellular biologist Zach Bush is even seeing this happen in the DNA of the planet.

I experience it when working within the neuroplasticity of my own DNA, using the very codes of trauma to reveal what needs integration (which is unification of a higher order). This is also the tantric path, the path of the unwavering search for God within everything that emerges upon the path.

These are some things that arise as I ponder Infinity before my upcoming conversation with Jennifer Rose, and I'm sure we'll also talk about somatics and share healing stories, but as my astrological song says, I "carry an ocean inside of a compass" and so here's me sharing the compass that points to those wordless waves.

The more I let the boat (& its devotional compass) carry me further into the Mystery, the more fluid and precise language becomes, and the more is held within each phrase or concept. Part of my purpose is to use my voice to point to the wordless, to help the parts of you still attached to words to ride them, like a boat, with trust and courage, into the wordless waters...

Honestly, I don't know what will unfold in my conversation with the delightful psychic medium Jennifer Rose on her show this coming Friday, but I'm excited to see what does!

If you'd like to join us LIVE (at 12 PM PT), follow this link to access the YT livestream:
​Sacred Spiral Network Livestream​

And here's the Facebook invitation:for more info:
​Embracing Infinity Facebook Invitation

​Video: Short on Symptoms as Portals

Blessed full moon and welcome into this chapter of shifting light.
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The image above is of some of the flower petals released last week from our summer solstice ceremony, carrying the skins needed shedding in order to be truly new for what wants to be born in us next.

It's the paradox of rebirth, and the beauty of my way of practicing healing evolution, that shedding happens naturally at fullness. The skin of the seed must crack in order to let in water, nutrients, light. But it is a generative shedding, like taking off one's clothes to go into a sauna or medicine lodge and let the heat do its alchemy to cleanse and call forth your essence. At least that's how I imagine it!

And there is a tenderness in the aftermath of the shed, as new, raw parts touch light and begin to form something, at first, wordless...

Do you feel the shift, the quiet re-orientation as the fullness of the light turns inward and downward, being magnetized by gravity, our bodies, and also our attention?

What if emptiness is not absence, but more ease at touching what's essential? Less static above a more reliable kind of fullness?

Here's a lovely quote from Ana Otero about this season we're entering:

"In many mystical traditions, Cancer is associated with the Great Mother, the Cosmic Womb, and the waters from which creation emerges. It is the sign of belonging, nourishment, memory, ancestry, and the soul's deepest roots. During this season we are invited to return to the inner sanctuary of the heart and listen to what is seeking to be nurtured within us. The Solstice reminds us that true growth does not occur through constant striving, but through the sacred rhythms of receiving, holding, and allowing life to unfold according to its divine timing.

This is also a season of incarnation. The mysteries of Cancer teach that every vision, prayer, revelation, and blessing must eventually enter the womb of the soul if it is to become embodied within the world."

A lot is percolating in the stillness for me right now.

I am listening for how the Sanctuary wants to grow next, while dropping the very identity within myself with which I began it.

Inside, we are beginning the alchemy within the cocoon, and something new will emerge on the other side.

It is pretty neat to get to bring together in one container the visceral intimacy of body-centered transformation with age-old mysticism and the magic of myth.

If you'd like to be a part of what's cooking, reach out to me to inquire.
 
Video: Restoring Animism and Embodying the Sacred

In this interview, I sit with Rachel Blackman, fellow animist, somatic practitioner, and devotee to the work of grounding the sacred in the body, for a rich conversation about how animism can completely change one's life, from the inside out.
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It's so important as we collectively awaken (a.k.a. reground in our original knowing) to hear stories of metamorphosis from those who have experienced the alchemy of "dying before you die," and perhaps even more importantly, to experience the radiant energy that is transmitted on the other side of saying "yes" to being remade.

This week we celebrate the Summer Solstice through shared presence, ritual, poetry and the heroine's journey of metamorphosis in the Body & Soul Sanctuary. 

On my own medicine path I am feeling called to amplify and be a voice for the heroine's journey in its many forms and colors, and I've been enjoying interviewing fellow medicine carriers and wisdom holders, getting as much if not more richness out of sharing with them and introducing them to you as I do sharing my own story.

This week I'm sharing an interview with Deanna Jenne, a mara'akame medicine woman who came into my life a few years ago when I was in the depths of a shamanic initiation manifesting as autoimmune illness from a vaccine injury.

She shares her own story of being initiated into the medicine path many years ago, about the power of learning to follow our own “yellow dots” in life, and how grounding it is to believe fully in our inner world and source our life from a place of personal power.

As old world systems and mind-states are crumbling around us, and as we can rely less and less on logic to ground us, medicine stories like this—true spiritual nourishment—are essential reminders that there is a greater way to navigate, a larger pattern of harmony on which we can rely, and that there are medicine keepers available, like Deanna and myself, to help restore soul connection, not by telling you what to do, but by mirroring your own divine wisdom so you can source your seeing from within.
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I am walking on currents of light.
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How could I want for anything
when the universe lifts my every footstep
fills my every inhale
carries my thoughts into an infinity
of wordless wonder?
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They told me this was “naive.”
They told me “dreamers don't survive this world.”
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But I say:
It was when I stopped dreaming
I became heavy as a boulder.
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When I believed them
my thoughts crippled my very limbs.
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It was when my heart was revived
like a fish rocked in water
after flailing on the shore
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That I knew without an ounce of doubt:
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Dreaming is my home
like water for gills.
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It is the Great Force of the Mystery
to whom every cell of me belongs
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And my job is to love
without condition
the Pattern
that pierces
every
other
pattern
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The one breathing this breath
the one writing this poem
and the one reading it.
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This very suspended moment
as awake
as the moon in the night
and as real
as the heart pumping
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however fast
however worried
however unfinished
with its karmic lessons
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Do you feel it?
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Thump-thump.
Thump-thump.
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​Light.

With the help of a shaman I trust, I was recently able to transmute a pattern that kept me separate from the flow of prana through my body, and I wrote the poem above the following day, as I adjusted to the deeper somatic freedom and observed a lightness reaching all the way down to my toes.

There are moments we work towards diligently for years that finally reach a crescendo (buffered by all of the resourcing, the stabilizing self compassion), and that smoothly, gently, fully LET GO.

Life feels new on the other side. Rigidity gives way to softness, curiosity. And doubt gives way to a certainty that is wrapped in Mystery.

On the other side of this threshold I find myself finally opening up publicly around a topic that was far too vulnerable for me to share before, which has to do with gender trauma and the rift between the masculine and feminine.

Speaking with my friend Shawndi~ who shares a similar passion for healing this rift~ was a supportive place to begin speaking into these wounds and their transmutation.

I hope you'll enjoy it, below, and reach out to me if you feel ready for support in healing the gender wounds in your own psyche and life.

Video gift: Healing the Masculine/Feminine Divide
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In this conversation, I interviewed my friend Shawndi Stahl on the topic of healing the masculine & feminine divide, within ourselves, and within culture. Shawndi is a beautiful example of someone who is saying YES to the calling of her soul, and witnessing how the deeply personal is intricately woven with dharma and legacy. In this conversation, we speak into how weaving these energies within ourselves is deeply empowering and can lead to radical life changes that mutually benefit those around us, simultaneously transforming the wounds of the past. 

Swing my tongue
in starry jelly
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Roll me up
in ashy shimmer
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Speak my bones
in quantum buzzes
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Smell my heart:
it's blooming.

When we say YES to the heroine's journey of SOUL, it's like being lifted and carried by a stream through life.

Quite different from the drudgery of carrying it all by oneself and making things happen.

It's not passive. There is turbulence. But the force of the stream is powerful enough to alchemize everything that arises upon the path.

It's like surfing.
It's potent, powerful, and fueled by LOVE.
Not in a toxic positivity kind of way, but in a phoenix-rising-from-the-ashes kind of way, where every challenge, every ache and pain becomes a portal.

Would you like to experience how the very thing that's weighing on you carries a pearl, a seed, within which a force that is benevolent sleeps, waiting your permission to awaken?

Closer to Venus Podcast:

​Speaking on the Closer to Venus Podcast was so fun! I got to channel about my work and experience through a more shamanic lens and answer questions about dreaming, shamanic initiation, ancestral healing, somatic alchemy, and waking up from the matrix! Here’s the full episode!

​Somatic Alchemy and Waking Up From the Matrix

Little seed
inside of me:
you seem so small.
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Yet I know that when
I devote myself fully
to your journey of awakening,
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I'll receive the whole world.

Do you feel the brightening light, calling the soul seed within you to awaken?

Do you know that whatever is happening in your life right now can be approached with a powerful curiosity, to support the cracking open of your most potent power, that light seeking to be known by a greater light, seeking to integrate with life itself, somehow stunningly unique and all-encompassing at the same time?

In the Sanctuary, we are courting our soul seeds now.

To join us, please connect with me through the Body & Soul Village page, found at the bottom of this email.

A video gift for you today:
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Sharing on the Heroine's Journey with Rena Bauman, and the amazing spiral journey of making medicine out of crisis.

It's time to stop compartmentalizing the "spiritual" and "embodiment." My experience is that what splits us from our body is precisely our disconnect from what I call "soul."

My late father once wrote in his journal (when he was just a young man in college) about his intention to raise his future children "nurturing and raising within them the deepest questions of life-the spiritual questions."

He wrote: "My concern is not which religion they choose to follow, but that they search with intensity for that indestructible part of themselves."

In the Sanctuary, we've just been re-entering womb territory.
That portal where deep pre-verbal imprints can be rewritten.
That space where safety can be reclaimed and re-write our story from deep waters.

As we traverse it (and for some of us, re-traverse it), identity evolution quickens and widens, like the contractions of a labor speeding up and rebirth becoming imminent.

I am not surprised, but also still totally in awe of this work which can take even the most seasoned practitioners into deeper depths and higher heights, more integrated in the whole spectrum of being both a precious, specific body and an eternal, powerful soul.

When we do this rebirthing work it ripples out into our lives, creating waves of positive change.
  
INVITATION:
Now is an optimum time to join us, as we are in a renewal phase of learning & practicing within the Sanctuary.

It is FREE to inquire and to experience a discovery call with me, so please reach out in the Village or directly here with any inquiries about this. It's my intention to further your clarity of your heroine's journey, whether or not we end up working together long term.
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*Please forward this email to anyone in your life who would be a good fit to speak with me.
A recent interview on how I applied Organic Intelligence® to my journey in healing chronic illness:

Like a gardener diligently showing up to water the soil, pull weeds and fence the garden bed from hungry critters, there's only so much I can do: provide proper conditions, nourish what is organizing, encourage the natural intelligence of the seedlings to take root, soften, and begin to open.

But the natural intelligence itself is the thing doing it.
I am just the gardener.

​In a culture that elevates doing, my deepening stance of being, and doing that emerges from being (as opposed to doing untethered from being), sometimes still triggers doubt.
Am I missing something?
(read: Am I not enough?)

The irony is that the more I sink my roots into being, the easier doing becomes. It flows, it reaches further. It lands. It calls situations into my life that resonate with the heart and soul work I am here for.
It is humbling and empowering both at once.

And so, as I go into four podcast interviews this week (not preparing, just arriving, as me), I hold the torch for you too, to sink your roots deeper, and let your branches reach higher, not straining, but ecstatically unfolding.
  
INVITATION into the Body & Soul Sanctuary:
Now is an optimum time to join us, as we are in a renewal phase of learning in the Sanctuary. It is FREE to inquire and to experience a discovery call with me, so please reach out in the Village or directly here with any inquiries about this. It's my intention to further your clarity of your heroine's journey, whether or not we end up working together long term.

A testimonial from Sheryl:

​The eve of our Spring Equinox ritual at the Body & Soul Sanctuary brought a fresh visitation of rain.
I stood at my altar in my office, having cleared it completely for a full reset, lit incense, and cracked the window to hear and smell the wet air...

Stepping beyond mere professional space-holding—while doing ritual in private—and into welcoming others into my sacred altar space has not been a small thing.
I have often felt like the Easter hare who is still half-bird, laying rainbow eggs while learning to scavenge, lope, and nibble grass on the ground. Integrating the part of me that is fully unfettered with the part that carries the weight of suffering has been a continuous journey. Sometimes it’s hard to know if it has been fruitful. Are the rainbow eggs doing anything other than sitting around, merely decorative?

Shedding skins of conditioning, questioning habits, beliefs, and ways of operating, and waking up to the unconscious ways culture promotes mis-truths, has been an uncovering both external and internal—and has heightened my desire to ensure that what I do here has substance, not mere decoration.

As I placed items on my altar anew last week, each thing vibrated, each thing lived in my hands. And when I planted each seed from our Village ritual and covered them with flower water, whole portals were activated. I actually believe that. Not just symbolically.

I think the reason it’s so hard to believe in magic these days is not because it’s not real, but because so much has become decorative. So much has become about reputation, performance, perception. The false allure covers over the true gold, but it doesn’t mean it’s not there.
I am feeling grief as I write this.

Magic isn’t feeling happy or successful every day. It’s knowing that everything is held in a field of Grace, and that it’s possible to traverse the full spectrum of experience and never be outside of Original Blessing. Once we know that, it’s possible to work with life—not to rescue it or be rescued by it, but to be present with it—while holding the memory of flight.

Many of the women I work with, and myself included, have wounds of codependency and feminine oppression we’ve had to heal. Part of coming awake is reclaiming our body wisdom and our connection with greater forces than the institutions that structure our modern culture—not because structures or institutions are “wrong,” but because they are designed to contain and create with those primordial energies, occasionally collapsing and reconstructing in more evolved ways, as informed by that mysterious soup—the beneficial “chaos” that makes renewal possible.

I’ll admit I often don’t know what I’m doing, even as I continue to sharpen my container so that my eggs come out fully formed and not as gooey messes all over the ground. But like all birds (and even birds-turned-hares) have the wisdom within to lay an egg, so too do we have the wisdom within to birth creations that restore magic to the land.

Stepping into creatorship sometimes threatens the forces that rely on our dependency to operate. But operating from mere individualism is lonely and antithetical to our nature. True interdependence, as I understand it, is a practice of leaning into a coherent field—a reliable and ordered universe that is benevolent in nature and wants us to flourish—while fully pursuing our authentic expression supported by that field. It is not anarchy, nor disempowered approval-seeking, but standing upon one’s feet like a sturdy tree: alert to our own sense of choice and our right to be fully ourselves, while connected to the web of existence in which we are nested, never losing our sense of being cradled, supported, and held—even as we fully inhabit our individuality, even our eccentricity.

My prayer this spring is that we all remember we are held by greater forces than the ones we are outgrowing, that we lean into that support and allow it to buoy us as we reach higher and further than we have before. That we allow our innate power to pulsate through our bodies as truest expression into the world—to shape it collectively, to regenerate the forest with the intelligence of the wise mycelium, the memory of renewal contained within the sprout, the tree-needle tip, the tiny bud. And may the process be ecstatic.
  
Below are two offerings for you:
First, a recent interview on the Functionally Enlightened podcast, in which I got to share message of hope and some supportive guidance for folks in the implant-injured and chronic illness community, which is one of my favorite interviews so far.

Second, a link to join the Body & Soul Village, where you can connect to learn about joining a container designed to support you in reconnecting with your innate magic to sustainably uplevel your life.

Now is an optimum time to join us, as we are in a renewal phase of learning in the Sanctuary. It is FREE to inquire and to experience a discovery call with me, so please reach out in the Village or directly here with any inquiries about this. It's my intention to further your clarity of your heroine's journey, whether or not we end up working together long term.

*A note on the interview:
Reparenting myself through the agony of degenerative autoimmune disease was a powerful initiation that ultimately freed me in many ways, but while it was happening, it felt like HELL. It was SO uncomfortable, confusing, disorienting, and unpredictable. And also, SOOO lonely. Because nobody I knew understood anything about what was going on. Getting to share messages of hope and practical guidance for folks struggling with similar challenges was very special for me. I was very grateful for the opportunity, and I hope it brings some ease to those in the midst of such an intense experience.